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Aug. 9th, 2011

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SO I AM OFFICIALLY GOING TO THE EVANESCENCE CONCERT IN NASHVILLE NEXT WEDNESDAY

IT IS THE FIRST PERFORMANCE OF THEIR NEW TOUR AND THEY'LL BE PERFORMING STUFF FROM THE NEW ALBUM BEFORE IT'S EVEN ACTUALLY RELEASED

I HAVE BEEN A FAN OF THEM FOR EIGHT YEARS AND I AM FINALLY GOING TO FUCKING SEE THEM

I AM SO EXCITED YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME OMG

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Jul. 17th, 2011

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME

Mar. 29th, 2011

10 Day Blog Post Challenge

1. Write about your favorite charity and why you support it.

2. Write about your favorite kind of music.

3. Write about a terrible day.

4. When I was younger…

5. Write a tutorial.

6. Write about the person you want to be.

7. Explain your religious beliefs.

8. The book that made you a reader.

9. Write about each of the places you’ve called “home”.

10. Write about your proudest moment.

 

I'm gonna be doing this just for the sake of having more stuff to write about on my blog and posting more often. I'll start either tomorrow or later tonight. Should be interesting.

Authors, this is what NOT to do.

I seriously cannot believe this woman. (Scroll down to the comments to see what I'm talking about.) I would say I've finally found an author I hate more than Stephenie Meyer and Anne Rice, but...I refuse to even give this woman the compliment of calling her an author when she's obviously not one.

How in the world can ANYONE be THAT unprofessional??? What she started out with was bad enough, but then she degenerates to just telling everyone to "fuck off." Congratulations, Miss Howett. When you put something on the Internet, it's there forever. This being the Internet, you've already gone viral, and now no publishing company, agent, or even reader is going to touch anything having to do with you with a ten-foot pole. Most effective example of how to commit career suicide that I've ever seen.

Now, being a writer myself, I understand what it's like to get attached to your work, and then when someone says anything bad about it, you rage. It happens. Criticism can hurt. It's completely understandable. And if you want to yell about "THIS GUY DIDN'T EVEN READ THE UPDATED VERSION HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE'S TALKING ABOUT IT'S BECAUSE I'M ENGLISH ISN'T IT I GOT PLENTY OF GOOD REVIEWS ON AMAZON!!!!" then that is perfectly fine...IF YOU DO IT IN PRIVATE, TO YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS THAT DON'T MIND LISTENING TO YOU BITCH. YOU DO NOT, EVER, EVER, EVER, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER post things like that on a public blog, on the Internet, where anyone, including publishing houses and potential readers, can see them. It's called "being a professional." Of course, any hope of those three words having any meaning whatsoever to this woman were completely lost when she told them all to fuck off. "lolz profesional wut iz that can u eat it"

Not to mention, dude. Look at this sentence:

"Don and Katy watched hypnotically Gino place more coffees out at another table with supreme balance."

If you are someone who is a native English speaker and would not only write that sentence BUT THEN DEFEND IT AND SAY YOU SEE NOTHING WRONG WITH IT? You need to go back to grade school. I WOULD HAVE SEEN SOMETHING WRONG WITH THAT WHEN I WAS SIX MOTHERFUCKING YEARS OLD. I WROTE BETTER THAN THAT WHEN I WAS SIX. That sentence sounds like the kind of Engrish you'd see in a badly translated video game. Think about that for a minute. A native English speaker...is producing the kind of prose that sounds like it was translated from Japanese by someone who didn't know what the hell they were doing. What. The. Hell.

And of course, she's giving all other indie authors out there a bad reputation. Good job, Miss Howett. Not only have you ruined your own career, you've also affected the careers of God knows how many other authors, who are probably ten times better writers than you and now hate you because they know they'll automatically be tarred with the same brush. Good job, dude. I mean, if I thought you were intentionally trolling, I would have to give this an A+ 100%, would rage again. As it is, you fail everything forever.

Mar. 23rd, 2011

Oh, you people and your re-releases.

Apparently Capcom is releasing RE4 and Code Veronica on the PS3 and 360. Because, yanno, three versions of RE4 is just NOT ENOUGH. I mean, it is an extremely good game, so I'm not gonna complain too much. But I'm a little tired of re-releases. Haha, hey, maybe Sony taking out backwards compatibility in the PS3 was actually a huge conspiracy with game developers so they could make more money re-releasing old games! IT MAKES PERFECT SENSE

In other news, to be srs for a moment, I just want to say that Japan has my ultimate respect. Seeing the way the Japanese people are dealing with the catastrophes there is simply amazing. I really, really doubt we would have handled all that as well here in the US (or in most countries, for that matter). Japan, I <3 you forever.

In related news, for the love of fuck, somebody give this guy a cape and a pair of Kamina glasses already.

Feb. 25th, 2011

Linkage

I couldn't agree more with this article, man.

Feb. 22nd, 2011

To My Sister

You are the strongest person I know, and words can't describe how much I admire you for it. After all the shit you've been through, all the pain, all the people that have walked all over you and spit in your face, you're still alive and kicking, proud of who you are and more than ready to punch anyone in the face who tries to fuck with you. Even if you get down, life can't keep you down for long. For that, you are my ultimate source of strength, and my ultimate inspiration. Knowing that you are there and that you will not give up gives me the faith to keep going even in my own darkest times. You're full of attitude, you never give a fuck, and that gives me hope. I admire you, I love you, and together the two of us could take on the world. My sister, my strength, and my sidekick, forever and always.
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Jan. 2nd, 2011

2010 in Review

Wow, it's been a really long time since I posted in here. I've just been so busy lately. And I feel like I've changed so much, since I came to Florida. Like...wow. I barely even know who I am anymore, and yet at the same time I feel like I'm more me than I ever have been before. It's a very...strange sensation. And it seems so weird to think that in just four days I'll be leaving behind everything that I've known for the past 4-5 months. That I'll be leaving behind all my friends. I'm going to miss everyone so much.

Okay, so here's my standard year in review according to the first sentence of my first blog post for each month:

Take the first sentence from the first post of each month of 2009. That's your year in review.

January - I think what it is is there's this terrible cycle.
February - Wow, it's been almost a month since I posted here.
March - I miss him a lot.
April - As long as I'm with him, I am where I belong.
May - No entries.
June - I just beat Alan Wake today, so time for a review.
July - Not that anybody actually reads my blog anyway, but I HAVE UPDATES ON A MILLION THINGS UNDER THE SUN.
August - So I'm basically having a panic attack right now and I desperately need a place to vent so that when the time comes I don't take it out on him.
September - I really don't know what I should do.
October - I really wish I felt like we still belonged together.
November - So it's all over, then.
December - No entries.

Wow...that was really depressing towards the end, there. Heh.

I need to just make a new start. I don't want to. I may never find the things that I had in my past, ever again. And they were good things. Really, really good things. I'm going to miss them. But they're in the past, and obsessing over them won't bring them back. I just need to live my life, and be free, and be happy, and never look back.

Nov. 22nd, 2010

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Okay, so I've been reading Mark Reads Harry Potter, which btw is about the coolest thing ever, and it's been making me really wanna reread the books myself. I mean, I still haven't gone back and actually read all seven since the last book came out. I KNOW, I AM SLACKING. And I'm beginning to realize just how much fun it would be because of the stunning revelation I just had, which I had to come and post on my blog about. Y'see, I was reading the scene in the third book in the Shrieking Shack, where Remus and Sirius are explaining stuff when Snape comes busting in acting like an asshole. I always just wrote up Snape's behavior in that scene to the fact that James and Sirius used to bully him in school, etc. But, then it occurred to me...

OKAY SPOILERS FOR THE ENTIRE HARRY POTTER SERIES LIE IN WAIT YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

Here's somethin' to ponder. We know now that Snape was in love with Lily. We also know that everyone thinks that Sirius was the Potters' Secret-Keeper and betrayed them. If even characters like Remus and Dumbledore don't know, prior to this scene, that Wormtail was the real Secret-Keeper...why the hell would Snape know? He wouldn't. He doesn't. So yes, the schoolyard bullying is part of why he's such a dick here. But you know what else? To him, at this point, Sirius is the man who was one of the closest friends of the woman he loved, who betrayed her to her death. THAT'S why Snape flies into such a rage and is so out of control at this point. I've always thought he seemed a little out of character in that scene. Snape tends to snark, not rage, and he seemed very insane and out of control in the Shrieking Shack--JKR even describes him at one point as "looking quite deranged." Thing is, there's a perfectly good reason for it. And my mind was blown when I realized that. JESUS JKR YOU REALLY DO THINK OF EVERYTHING (okay, maybe it's not that big a deal, but to me it was dammit, leave me alone)

P.S. AND WHEN HE WAS TALKING ABOUT TURNING SIRIUS OVER TO THE DEMENTORS, I WAS LIKE OH MAN YOU'RE A DICK FOR WANTING SOMEBODY TO HAVE THEIR SOUL SUCKED OUT JUST BECAUSE THEY BULLIED YOU IN SCHOOL, BUT IT MAKES SO MUCH MORE SENSE LOOKING AT IT FROM THAT PERSPECTIVE SJDFLKDJ:RIFuaePldsja

Nov. 9th, 2010

This post, in particular the very last sentence, just reminded me of why I want so much to be a writer.

Nov. 4th, 2010

So it's all over, then.

Sep. 23rd, 2010

Oh man.

I can't believe the next chapter of Ouran is going to be the last one. And it'll be out in Japan in a couple days, too. =\ That last one really made me sad...I can't believe Haruhi is leaving. Bah.

Yes, that is all.

P.S. I really like this Escala band.

Aug. 17th, 2010

Well, I made it to Orlando.

I made it here. Tomorrow is my check-in for the Disney World College Program. I'm really nervous, but more than anything, right now I'm just really excited and hyper. I was incredibly anxious up until I got here, but...I think for now I'm flipped into Disney World mode, haha. Even though I'm not here on vacation.

The only thing that's gonna suck is that I'm aiming to be up by 6 AM tomorrow. Check-in doesn't start until 9, but it seems to be pretty unanimous that people start lining up around 6. -_- So I'm gonna get up at 6, grab a quick breakfast, then go ahead and head on over there. It also sucks that this hotel doesn't have a normal continental breakfast like most hotels do...I was hoping they'd have a buffet open at 6 and I could just grab a bowl of cereal or something and eat real quick and then hit the road. Instead, I'm going to be existing off potato chips until tomorrow afternoon or evening sometime. HAHA. I'm 21 and immortal, it's okay.

K, I'm gonna stop rambling for now. I'll probably update tomorrow sometime when I get checked in and find out where I'll be working, etc.

Jul. 16th, 2010

Massive update on a million things!

Not that anybody actually reads my blog anyway, but I HAVE UPDATES ON A MILLION THINGS UNDER THE SUN.

First of all, my mom had knee replacement surgery done on both knees! Yay! (She's had EXTREMELY bad arthritis for a good 5-6 years--she was bone on bone--and could barely walk, and both she and I promised my dad before he died that after he was gone, we'd see to it that she got the surgery done.) She had it done at the Mayo Clinic down in Jacksonville, which just to let anyone who's contemplating to go there know--it's a good hospital, but HOLY FUCKING SHIT THE FOOD SUCKS SO BAD. Dude, I know hospital food is supposed to suck, but theirs is just shitty beyond all reason. Anyway, now she's at the rehab facility here in Macon, and she's due to leave on the 23rd and is making progress really quickly. She's been walking pretty far--with a walker, of course--and she says the pain is nowhere near as bad as it was pre-surgery.

Also, I went to visit Jesi! And...it did not really go as planned. I barely go to see Jesi because she spent all the time with her new boyfriend Chris. Instead, I made great friends with her roommate Kris. Jesi, meanwhile, did things like telling me she was taking the day off work to spend time with me and then proceeding to go out with her boyfriend, without even asking or even TELLING me that was what she was going to do. SO yeah.

And I bought an Xbox 360! Wait a minute, my imaginary readers are thinking, don't you already HAVE an Xbox 360? Well...yes. But y'see, mine sucks, really really badly. Constant "disc is unreadable" and "insert this disc into an Xbox 360 console" errors and shit. And seeing as it's three years old and is out of warranty, sending it in to Microsoft to get it fixed is going to cost me at least $100 or so. Plus, it's an older model with a 20GB hard drive, which is rapidly being filled up with Rock Band songs, so I want a bigger hard drive. Upgrading that is going to set me back another $150 or so. Altogether, I'd be spending $250. At that price? I might as well go get a new one, especially since doing so would probably get me a console in way better condition than having Microsoft attempt to fix mine. (I sent it in once under warranty and I swear it came back even worse.) No sooner did I decide this then Microsoft announced their new Xbox 360 slim. I AM ONE WITH THE UNIVERSE

So anyway, that's what I bought. Haven't really played with it much yet, but my initial impressions are good. (ESPECIALLY SINCE I ACTUALLY GOT MY RECEIVER TO WORK WITH THE OPTICAL AUDIO, HOLY SHIT) It's really, really, REALLY quiet. I mean, damn. I haven't actually compared yet, but I think it may be even quieter than my PS3, which is saying a lot since I constantly forget that my PS3 is even turned on. For the most part, it seems like they fixed a lot of people's complaints. Internal hard drive, built-in Wifi, dedicated optical audio port...it's nice. Of course, it remains to be seen if it will work any better than my old one. So far though, I'm reasonably satisfied. I say satisfied and not impressed because let's face it, this is the console they should have come out with to START with, instead of the disposable pieces of shit that are the original Xbox 360s. Of course, considering how obviously they're ripping off the PS3, maybe they couldn't do that because then it would be a PS3 and it would have cost $600 and they wouldn't sell and they'd have to start taking out features they'd had for years, hahahahaha. (I hate game companies)

But yeah. I'll update with further impressions on the new 360 once I have them. I also went to Disney World and I have the urge to write a trip report, but I'll do that later, since right now I have to go visit my mom before visiting hours end. (They're only from 4 to 8, how shitty is that?)

Jun. 18th, 2010

A link and some rambling thoughts.

I like this.

It reminds me of the kind of soul-searching I've been having to do lately, in a way. I feel like I've lost touch with myself lately; like I don't really know who I am anymore. And reading that makes me think. I want to be able to life my life and not have the system of the world take away what's most important to me. But then--what IS it that I don't want to lose? What exactly are the dreams that I want to follow? I don't even know anymore. It used to be writing. I knew since I was six that that was all I ever wanted to do. But now, I don't really know anymore. Even that is something that I have a hard time being interested in. Yet it's the only dream I have that really gives my life any sense of purpose. But even on a good day, all I ever do is dream of writing and never actually write. And it's been that way for years. I just wish I could reawaken my passion...for everything. But no matter what I do, I seem to stay more or less dead on the inside.

I don't know what to do.

Jun. 6th, 2010

Spoiler-free Alan Wake review!

I just beat Alan Wake today, so time for a review. And much like my review of FF13, a good bit is going to be devoted to answering the most common complaints people seem to have about it, so you have been warned.

First of all, I'll just say that I was actually very, very happy with the game--and I'm one that's been following it for several years now, so. I only have two complaints, which I'll get to in a moment. Let's break it down.

Graphics: The funny thing is that the graphics are one of the things the haters actually LIKE about the game. Me? They're one of my only two complaints. Now, it's very possible that I'm just spoiled because it hasn't been that long since I played FF13, but to me, Alan Wake's graphics are nothing to write home about. I can recall seeing shitty textures and even some actual pixelization in several parts, and the characters are a little Uncanny Valley. They're not terrible graphics, mind. It looks nice enough, it's just...not mind-blowing or anything.

Gameplay: Okay, so this is people's biggest complaint. "It's repetitive! It's linear!" First of all, yes, it is linear. If you want to know my thoughts about that, refer to FF13. All games are linear, some just hide it better than others. Alan Wake doesn't hide it very well. So what? It's also a very story-driven game. Story-driven games usually work BETTER the more linear they are, particularly a thriller like Alan Wake, because keeping it linear helps keep a feeling of intensity going. Speaking of, to all the people complaining about it not being scary--it's supposed to be a thriller more than horror. And it does that very well. Very intense, very atmospheric, very amazing.

Now, on to the repetitiveness. Yes, maybe it would have been nice to see a little bit more variety in the enemy types thrown at you, but it's not that big a deal. For one thing, the game is only about 10-12 hours long, so it's not like it has time to get that annoying. And believe it or not, there's actually a good bit of strategy available to use in the combat. Personally, I wasn't annoyed by the gameplay at all.

Of course, one thing people don't seem to grasp is that this is a STORY-DRIVEN GAME. Yes, they could have had more variety in the settings, but that's not what the storyline called for. If they HAD started throwing in different settings randomly, this game would have been absolute shit. And for people bitching about Alan's inability to run far without getting winded? Yes, it's annoying, but dude. He's a WRITER. He's Stephen King, not Chris Redfield. It's this little thing we like to call "realism," and in this case, it adds to the intensity of the story. Same thing with Alan constantly losing his weapons. There's always a good reason for it storyline-wise (SPOILER: for instance, YOU try keeping a bunch of guns on you when you get thrown into jail). Which leads me to...

Story: Obviously the most important part, as I repeatedly stressed above. And personally, I think it has a very good storyline. It keeps you involved and makes you want to keep playing. There's a lot of references to pop culture and various horror stories, which I enjoyed. And it's also a very ambiguous mindfuck, which is the kind of story I enjoy (I'm an Evangelion fan, for fucks' sake). Although, considering the amount of times I've seen professional reviewers describe the game as being rather literary, I kind of wonder if maybe a lot of the backlash against the game is coming from the 99% of the American population that might as well be illiterate because they don't bother to read. Or maybe it's just the ADD kids that can't stand story-driven games because they lose interest when ten minutes go by and nothing has exploded. Or maybe it's both. Who knows.

However, I do have one big complaint. I mentioned above that the game is only 10-12 hours long. Granted, action-type games are usually much shorter than, say, your average RPG. But even for an action game, 10-12 hours is very, very short. The reason for this--as well as, I suspect, for the ambiguous ending--is because the developers decided they're going to keep the game going with additional episodes that will be available to buy as DLC. Now, I would have nothing against this--IF the game felt like it was a complete game as is, and the DLC episodes were really just extra content. Problem is, they basically gave us an incomplete game, slapped on a vague ending, and decided to release the rest as DLC to get more money out of us. Personally, I have a problem with that. I would much rather they had taken as many extra years as they needed to in order to give us a complete game. Of course...it was five years ago that it was first talked about, and I understand they didn't want to fall into the trap of having a game that got delayed so many times that people just lost interest and forgot about it. So it may not have been entirely a money-based decision. But regardless of the reasoning, I'm still not happy with it.

That is, however, my single biggest complaint. All in all, I'm actually very happy with the game, and enjoyed playing it a lot. I enjoyed it enough that I'll doubtless be buying the extra episodes, even though I wish they'd been included in the game as they should have been.

Apr. 18th, 2010

I beat FF13!

Best Final Fantasy game ever. I am not even kidding. I pretty much said it all in my earlier post about the game, but in answer to some of the complaints I've seen about it...

Yes, it is linear. Big freaking deal. Being as linear as it is actually serves the purpose of keeping you focused on the story. Intense moments actually feel intense, because it's not like "OMG WE HAVE TO GO SAVE _____ RIGHT NOW BEFORE _____ HAPPENS" but then actually you can just go wander around town and do whatever for as long as you want. Yeah, there's no towns and basically no NPC interaction, but that adds to the realistic feel of the world, which is one of FF13's biggest strengths. And hey guys, guess what? FINAL FANTASY X WAS EVERY BIT AS LINEAR AS FINAL FANTASY XIII IS. And 99% of you people bitching about FF13 loved the fuck out of FFX, so quit being fags and shut your fucking mouth. The ONE legitimate complaint I've seen about the linearity is that it DOES take a really long time to let you fully use the battle system. But hey, once it finally does, the battle system is awesome enough that I don't even really care that it took like ten hours to get there.

Um...I guess that really pretty much covers it. Although I have seen people also complaining about the story and the characters, but...I don't even really know what to say to that, because I'm pretty sure that we didn't even play the same game. 'Cause the game I played had a really intense and involving storyline, and the characters were one of its biggest strengths. They were actually human, and it actually made you care about them.

OH RIGHT. I've seen people saying that certain plot points were only covered in the Datalog. To which I say...what? Um, you guys must really fucking fail really fucking hard at paying attention. Because with one single notable exception (which I won't mention here because uh, spoilers), the only thing I EVER saw in the Datalog were recaps of exactly what I had just seen happen on screen with absolutely no new information whatsoever. And I read every single one of them. So um. You guys FAIL.

BUT I LOVE THIS GAME A LOT OMG IT IS SO AWESOME, I WOULD EVEN GO SO FAR AS TO SAY IT IS ONE OF THE BEST RPGS I HAVE EVER PLAYED AND TRUST ME I'VE PLAYED QUITE A FEW

P.S. Fang and Vanille are lesbian

Apr. 15th, 2010

The problem with psychiatry.

I've been doing a lot of reading and contemplating lately, and I feel the need to rant. You have been warned.

Apr. 12th, 2010

Pointless ranting, but seriously, I HATE THIS BOOK.

I just wanted to say that I hate The Awakening by Kate Chopin.

No, seriously. Edna Pontellier is the worst fucking character ever. She just ARGH RAGE. "I'm a feminist! Which means I want to be free, free to whore around as much as I want lulz!" She's all about "I'm not gonna be anyone's possession" but then she says she herself wants to possess Robert and just ARGH. Not to mention, HOLY FUCK THE EMO. "I'm in love with a person who left because he didn't think it was right for me to cheat on my husband with him so I'm just gonna go jump into the seaaaa oh btw I was also cheating on him with this other guy because I'm a whore lulz but I'm a feminist and I have claimed my EROTIC FREEDOM oh why do I have herpes now"

HAAAAAAAAATE

Mar. 24th, 2010

I hate everything.

So apparently my big meeting today was all just a waste, since the only thing she can handle is psychology field placements. The college program obviously is not going to apply towards that, which I could have figured out on my own because I'm not an idiot, thanks. I could potentially try to talk to people from the business school to get credit, or try to transfer in credit from somewhere else. So what I really need to do is talk to my adviser and try to figure out what would be the best way for me to work this out and formulate a plan. Which is what I already KNEW I needed to do, and when I tried to set up an appointment with my adviser to DO that, I got blown off to this other chick. I suppose it's possible he just misunderstood what I needed, but honestly, does the Disney World College Program sound like something that would count as a psychology field placement? No, it does not. I mean, what, does he think Disney has therapists standing around to counsel people who accidentally saw Mickey without his head or something?

I could always try to work things out, but dude, I'm pissed and it's not worth the hassle. Not to mention, I don't have the time. I only have two weeks to accept or reject my invitation to the program. And I've already wasted basically an entire week going off on a wild goose chase because my adviser is an idiot and isn't doing his job. My only option at this point is not go or just withdraw for next semester, which is shitty because that means I'll end up graduating a semester later than I otherwise would. Unless I do summer courses and load up on hours, which I'm not going to do. And I'm not entirely sure I won't lose my financial aid if I do that. But ha, good luck getting to talk to anybody to find out.

On top of that, I STILL haven't gotten the stupid form I need in order to file my taxes and I haven't been able to make a doctor appointment until during freaking finals week. WHY IS THERE NOBODY THAT WILL COME THROUGH THE WAY THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO. ARGH.

I HATE EVERYTHING

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